Today is the 23rd July 2007 . Sigh, should i say i had a bad day or should i say i made my day bad ? Sigh . Marketing presentation and Economics test today . Sighs again . I screwed it up . Damn .
Marketing was bad because i had less than an hour to prepare of what i am to say . Powerpoint slides were only ready this morning . That's what we always do, till the eleventh hour and we start to rehearse . Bad, i know, but the person doing it has to be taken into consideration that he is doing ALL the powerpoint slides, ALL the report and he's gonna present and take the Economics test the same as we are . Then came my turn to present, and i can actually pronounce one word wrongly despite the fact that Martin corrected me a minute ago . Psychological ! That's the word . Hmph ! I can pronounced it as fee-scho-lo-gi-cal when the perfect pronounciation should be sai-cho-lo-gi-cal . Clever i am right, i know . I'm an imbecile too . Lol . Other than that, i just keep on missing words here and there because i'm so nervous . Phew, thank god that it didn't went too badly or else, i might be thinking of getting myself a full-time job now . Why is it that you may ask ? 'cause i told myself that if i ever fail and forward ( repeat ) any module, any, i'll quit school . Yes, i'll quit school and you heard me right . Perhaps you're thinking that i'm placing high expectations on myself, but that's what i do to attain what i want in life . Few months ago when i handed my Mom a form for her signature, she looked at my handwriting and said that i was a perfectionist . I kinda agree . She interpret that for everything in my life, i require a 7 out of 10 for every of them . I agree, and i told her that the 7 might be changing to a 8 now . That's why i took Accountancy Diploma, for my future sake . Because i wanna have my own car, my own condominium, my own office, my own maid and i wanna earn real big bucks, not in Singapore currency, but US or pounds . Yeah, so far, it's just this . And i think Mom is getting suspicious of me in the case of BGR . Haha . 'cause she've been asking who i hang out with lately when i inform her of my absence at home . She'll ask who i'm going out with, girl or boy, how many pax, really, or am i lying this sort of thing . Haha . To be truthful, i wouldn't hesitate to tell her the truth if she happens to ask . I'm having a crush . Okay, i don't wanna dwell into that topic before i start to "emo" again .
Back here, then Marketing went past and we've got 5 hours and 15 minutes for a break before Economics test begin, canteen was full, so were all the benches that we usually sit around during breaks . We decided to have lunch at Suki Sushi Cineleisure . My god, i was officially full for once more after starving myself for months due to improper eating habits . Then went back to school for a short study and we took the Economics test . Two topics tested, Elasticity and Production Cost . I'm well prepared for Elasticity and i only laid some fingers on Production Cost, that's it . So, well, i kinda did my best during the test, just hope that i at least got a B . T_T .
Time now : 2357 hours . I manage to talk to him again . =DDD ! And we chatted quite a bit . Hope it lasts, but then, i hope that i don't think too much again, just in case the ending is not what i wanted, i'll go crazy . Sigh .
Right, gonna turn in soon . Wish my luck . Ciao and nights ! ~ =)
Monday, July 23, 2007
Sunday, July 22, 2007
Today is the 22nd July 2007 . Study day today, nothing much happened .
Went online at 3plus 4p.m., and was chatting with Martin and Nathan when Nathan kinda pissed off Martin a little, just a little . Haha, then Martin pretended to be so pissed that he didn't wanna do the powerpoint presentation slides for tomorrow's presentation . He didn't told me he was pretending at first, then i got so annoyed till Martin decided to tell me the fact that it was a lie and to keep it a secret from Nathan . LOL ! Until Nathan decides to do the powerpoint for tomorrow for the group then we'll tell him the truth . Haha . Being punked on MSN already got me laughing so loud, i wonder if i would faint if i've seen his expression live ! Haha .
Then went to call Black Angus to check for my shift for the coming week, Tiffany answered the call . I'm gonna start work again and earn myself money to spend . Next week's shift : -
Friday : 6p.m. to 12 midnight
Saturday : 10a.m. to 4p.m., 6p.m. to 12 midnight
Sunday : 10a.m. to 4p.m.
Gonna work and work, i don't care . My life shall be study for career, work for money and play with friends, that's all, i hope . Please don't spare me time to think, i'll go crying in the end . Just before i hang up the phone conversation with Tiffany, she said, 'See you later ! ' . I went ' Huh ? ' and thought she's gonna scare me or something . I laughed and said to her i've got to get back to revision and no time for jokes . She told me that she's not joking and that's when i start to get suspicious . She said i have a shift today at 6p.m. to 10p.m. . The time of the phone call ? Around 5.05p.m. . She wentta ask Peter to talk to me and Peter got hold of the phone and told me that i really have a shift today . I was like, "DOOM ! HOW COME I HAVE NO IDEA ? ! AHHHHH ! ~ " He asked if i've an exam tomorrow and i said yes, i tell ya, i was so lucky the manager on shift was Peter, if not, i would probably got a nice good scolding . How can i forget ? Beats me too . I totally have no idea at all, not a single thing reminds me of working today . I feel bad though, because Tiffany takes over me for the night . Sorry and thanks, Tiffany . =/ .
Right, i just recall that i haven't apply my face cream yet, and gotta get back to revision . Ciao people !
P.S. I learnt new words today ! Imbecile - silly and stupid person . Haha ! Now when i say that into people's face, they might think i'm saying good things about them . Oh my ! They're birdbrains ! LOL ! ! ~ Lalalalala ~~~ =P
Went online at 3plus 4p.m., and was chatting with Martin and Nathan when Nathan kinda pissed off Martin a little, just a little . Haha, then Martin pretended to be so pissed that he didn't wanna do the powerpoint presentation slides for tomorrow's presentation . He didn't told me he was pretending at first, then i got so annoyed till Martin decided to tell me the fact that it was a lie and to keep it a secret from Nathan . LOL ! Until Nathan decides to do the powerpoint for tomorrow for the group then we'll tell him the truth . Haha . Being punked on MSN already got me laughing so loud, i wonder if i would faint if i've seen his expression live ! Haha .
Then went to call Black Angus to check for my shift for the coming week, Tiffany answered the call . I'm gonna start work again and earn myself money to spend . Next week's shift : -
Friday : 6p.m. to 12 midnight
Saturday : 10a.m. to 4p.m., 6p.m. to 12 midnight
Sunday : 10a.m. to 4p.m.
Gonna work and work, i don't care . My life shall be study for career, work for money and play with friends, that's all, i hope . Please don't spare me time to think, i'll go crying in the end . Just before i hang up the phone conversation with Tiffany, she said, 'See you later ! ' . I went ' Huh ? ' and thought she's gonna scare me or something . I laughed and said to her i've got to get back to revision and no time for jokes . She told me that she's not joking and that's when i start to get suspicious . She said i have a shift today at 6p.m. to 10p.m. . The time of the phone call ? Around 5.05p.m. . She wentta ask Peter to talk to me and Peter got hold of the phone and told me that i really have a shift today . I was like, "DOOM ! HOW COME I HAVE NO IDEA ? ! AHHHHH ! ~ " He asked if i've an exam tomorrow and i said yes, i tell ya, i was so lucky the manager on shift was Peter, if not, i would probably got a nice good scolding . How can i forget ? Beats me too . I totally have no idea at all, not a single thing reminds me of working today . I feel bad though, because Tiffany takes over me for the night . Sorry and thanks, Tiffany . =/ .
Right, i just recall that i haven't apply my face cream yet, and gotta get back to revision . Ciao people !
P.S. I learnt new words today ! Imbecile - silly and stupid person . Haha ! Now when i say that into people's face, they might think i'm saying good things about them . Oh my ! They're birdbrains ! LOL ! ! ~ Lalalalala ~~~ =P
Saturday, July 21, 2007
Today is the 21st July 2007 . The time is . . . 3.03pm now and i just woke up from my sleep . Was so tired from the concert yesterday .
Nothing much of the concert, Chinese Orchestra and Concert Band, that's all . Yawns . Saw a lot of bitches and trying-to-act-tough-and-gangster bustards, my eyes almost meet in the middle . Oh please, some may look pretty, but the way they act was just . . . "prostitutious" . Well, i don't want such things to corrupt my computer . -Stop-
Keep on getting emotional thesedays . What do i do ? Keep on getting emotional because i think there's no cure to it . Felt like doing everything alone, not referring to school work, i mean personal stuffs . Be it watching a movie, taking a bus trip, walking, eating or whatever, if it's not him, i rather be alone . Though i know there's no chance, but i can't seem to stop dreaming . And this is when i realize that i was lying to myself in the previous post . T.T .
Monday is Economics CA2 and Marketing presentation, as usual, hopes both goes well . Somehow or another, there's a little conflict in between . Just hope that everything goes well and we score the first . =)
Gotta go . . . revision time . Ciao .
Nothing much of the concert, Chinese Orchestra and Concert Band, that's all . Yawns . Saw a lot of bitches and trying-to-act-tough-and-gangster bustards, my eyes almost meet in the middle . Oh please, some may look pretty, but the way they act was just . . . "prostitutious" . Well, i don't want such things to corrupt my computer . -Stop-
Keep on getting emotional thesedays . What do i do ? Keep on getting emotional because i think there's no cure to it . Felt like doing everything alone, not referring to school work, i mean personal stuffs . Be it watching a movie, taking a bus trip, walking, eating or whatever, if it's not him, i rather be alone . Though i know there's no chance, but i can't seem to stop dreaming . And this is when i realize that i was lying to myself in the previous post . T.T .
Monday is Economics CA2 and Marketing presentation, as usual, hopes both goes well . Somehow or another, there's a little conflict in between . Just hope that everything goes well and we score the first . =)
Gotta go . . . revision time . Ciao .
Friday, July 20, 2007
Today is the 20th July 2007 . Before i forget and delay furthur, ROM photos up ! Not in order though, 'cause i'm not familar with the arrangement skills . How do i look ? Too white ? Too tall ? Tell me ! Enjoy !
Public concert tonight ! ~ Definitely look forward to it together with my sister, perhaps she might be thinking like : "=.= . It's only some school concert, you don't have to get too excited 'bout it . " . Since i've graduated from the school and has unforgettable memories, i look to having the 'secondary school' feeling again . =) . *.* ! Haha .
In case you're wondering that i'm blogging early in the morning and not paying attention to lectures or tutorials, haha, then you're wrong . I'm having a break now for the 3-hours small lecture . I'm a good girl for sure ! ~ XD .
Back to lesson . Ciao !
Thursday, July 19, 2007
Today is 19th July 2007 . Decided to blog again 'cause there's no point mulling over what had happened . The past is over, it's a history, a memory and we can only get tasks completed today and hope for the best tomorrow . . . for the future . It could be my thinking, it could be of what i see, but my principles of life sends logical thoery to me to remind me that it's still better to stick to what i think should be believed . Thus, i see no point changing font size for words which explains about him anymore . Without saying, 7/10 of the time, i'll visit his blog for a look out . Recently saw something which, i think is the reason for me to blog once again . Don't wish to talk about it . I tried to approach him, but end up closing the MSN window, not even a 'Hi' . Whenever i see flyers, whenever i heard any classic or latin or ballroom music and whenever i see someone with similar hairstyle as his, i think of him . However, come to think of him, i thought perhaps i might wanna stop thinking and stop wasting time . To me, maybe because i haven't been into a serious relationship, a rejection means the end of friendship of two persons . Right, enough of him and relationships. Thought that i might wanna find my blog another skin to match my current life situation but then it might be too much a hassle and, i can say that i'm still waiting for some serious love to come . However, i wish to be single as yet till something strike me to take on love/relationship again .
Okay, so now what ? Now . . . is study and work and my group of friends in school, that's all . Everyday i go to school to learn with my five other true best group mates, and we make the best group of 6 in class . =) . We eat together, study together, hang out together, go shopping together and do lotsa things together . And come to work, i'll work a lot to earn as much as i can and i'll buy presentation clothes for myself . ^o^ . I'm getting more crazy at shopping . Other than that, i'll just slack and do the things i wanna do .
Exams are rolling in my schedule again . Had accounting CA2 today, bad . . . gonna keep on hoping that i'll at least get a B+ or a B . Monday is Economics and i'll have to study more and smarter to score high . Next week is last lecture before exam revision week starts . Sigh, so many exams coming at one go, i might become some human-panda living thing on Earth . Lol . But then, i'll work to my best for everything, 'cause i wanna have a bright future that has minimal finance trouble and maximal luxury of this life with happiness floating around me all the time . I aim for the Cs in life - credit card, condominium and car . Laughs . Am i aiming too high ? Once again, the only word to answer the question : 'Perhaps' .
Tomorrow is Teck Whye Sec's public concert again, and i'm going with JieRui . =) . I look forward to it . Look out for the next post coming which is about JieJie's ROM ! ~ May be a bit slow at that, but it's better than not posting about it at all .
From now on, i strive to become what i used to be like . . . and i keep my principles of life obvious so as to be who the MinMin was in the past . Though actions are always tougher than said, i still strive, no matter what . Only the past of me could lead me to the future i aim to be .
Cheers . Ciao ! ~ Nights .
^.^
Okay, so now what ? Now . . . is study and work and my group of friends in school, that's all . Everyday i go to school to learn with my five other true best group mates, and we make the best group of 6 in class . =) . We eat together, study together, hang out together, go shopping together and do lotsa things together . And come to work, i'll work a lot to earn as much as i can and i'll buy presentation clothes for myself . ^o^ . I'm getting more crazy at shopping . Other than that, i'll just slack and do the things i wanna do .
Exams are rolling in my schedule again . Had accounting CA2 today, bad . . . gonna keep on hoping that i'll at least get a B+ or a B . Monday is Economics and i'll have to study more and smarter to score high . Next week is last lecture before exam revision week starts . Sigh, so many exams coming at one go, i might become some human-panda living thing on Earth . Lol . But then, i'll work to my best for everything, 'cause i wanna have a bright future that has minimal finance trouble and maximal luxury of this life with happiness floating around me all the time . I aim for the Cs in life - credit card, condominium and car . Laughs . Am i aiming too high ? Once again, the only word to answer the question : 'Perhaps' .
Tomorrow is Teck Whye Sec's public concert again, and i'm going with JieRui . =) . I look forward to it . Look out for the next post coming which is about JieJie's ROM ! ~ May be a bit slow at that, but it's better than not posting about it at all .
From now on, i strive to become what i used to be like . . . and i keep my principles of life obvious so as to be who the MinMin was in the past . Though actions are always tougher than said, i still strive, no matter what . Only the past of me could lead me to the future i aim to be .
Cheers . Ciao ! ~ Nights .
^.^
Sunday, July 15, 2007
Saturday, July 14, 2007
Today is the 14th July 2007 . I'm at Bugis National Library now .
I have to say this . I have totally no mood to blog for days and i predict i'll have such mood till very long after i've cool down on it .
Should i say i'm pretending to be happy, keeping myself busy to forget the unhappiness or what ? I have no i dea . I know i'm just a failure .
F . A . I . L . U . R . E .
我好想哭 。 。 。 因为我知道， 我们已无法像以前那样做朋友了。 虽然你说我们还可以做朋友，但我心里那种尴尬的感觉 。 。 。 会把我们的友情始终隔着一段距离。 我不想想太多，但是脑里还是不断的想着你。
=(
I have to say this . I have totally no mood to blog for days and i predict i'll have such mood till very long after i've cool down on it .
Should i say i'm pretending to be happy, keeping myself busy to forget the unhappiness or what ? I have no i dea . I know i'm just a failure .
F . A . I . L . U . R . E .
我好想哭 。 。 。 因为我知道， 我们已无法像以前那样做朋友了。 虽然你说我们还可以做朋友，但我心里那种尴尬的感觉 。 。 。 会把我们的友情始终隔着一段距离。 我不想想太多，但是脑里还是不断的想着你。
=(
Wednesday, July 11, 2007
Today is the 10th July 2007 . I'm tired, but i still feel like blogging . It's 1.17a.m. now, i just finish my work, not all though. =/ .
Supposed to go Kallang today and interview Jiejie about Black Angus, but they cancelled it because they thought it was too paiseh or something like that . Haha . I will wanna do it anyway, because that's what we have to outshine the other groups . I will interview next time . I mean . . . after Jiejie and Jiefu comes back from Taiwan .
Planned to go Black Angus and eat for an experience tomorrow, called and wanted to ask which manager is on shift for tomorrow night . Shalini answered the call and i thought i can skip the beat around the bush part and ask her straight because it's not appropriate to ask for a manager's shift outta no where . Then i asked her to check for me, and she said it's Eddie for tomorrow night and I heard David's voice behind, asking her .
David : Who is it ? Who is it ?
Shalini : Arrr . . . this Chantel calling to ask the manager's shift .
David : Ask what ? Wan work come work, no need ask manager's shift .
Then David got hold of the phone . =.= ! ! ! Bad, but it's done, so forget it . Then asked Chris online if he has any idea . He SMSed Linh and said tomorrow is David working the entire day because Eddie 'OFF' and 'Peter ON MARRIAGE LEAVE' . Just hope i got a bit more discount because we're not there to eat actually, to have the experience and and score points for our Marketing project .
I kept on going to his blog and checking updates for his tagboard . I gave hints but the hints are not really applicable . Updates of tag conversation : -
Me> -: she . . . has no idea whether does she has the chance to be with you . . . thus, not to be named was her choice .
Him> Jerron: To :- : i just wan to noe,is she in the same sch as me or cca or online de ??
Me> -: she's not in the same school as you .
Him> Jerron: To :- : then how she noe me since she nt the same sch as me?? Can just tell me who is she??
Me> -: why do you wanna know so much ?
Him> Jerron: To :-: cos i very curious ,nvm bar if u dun wan to say then i wun force u bar
Me> -: she paiseh to say . later genna rejected . really wanna know ? then call her . = ) . you got her contact number . it begins with 8144 . . . .
Him> Jerron: To :- : can u telll me wat her name starting?? cos i have alot of contact list lei . Mind telling me she sec wat or how old ??
Me> -: 17 this year, just had her birthday last June . Studying diploma in a polytechnic .
Me> -: do you know who is she now ? O_o
He haven't replied so far but I hope he knows it's me, and of course, you know . . . yeah . >.< ! ! I wonder how he feels, and i wonder what have i become ? I'm beginning to lose control of my feelings of him i guess . Hope his dancing goes well . Dance well . . . and rest well too . 晚安 ！
Right, time to sleep ! Nights boys and girls ! ~ Ciao !
Supposed to go Kallang today and interview Jiejie about Black Angus, but they cancelled it because they thought it was too paiseh or something like that . Haha . I will wanna do it anyway, because that's what we have to outshine the other groups . I will interview next time . I mean . . . after Jiejie and Jiefu comes back from Taiwan .
Planned to go Black Angus and eat for an experience tomorrow, called and wanted to ask which manager is on shift for tomorrow night . Shalini answered the call and i thought i can skip the beat around the bush part and ask her straight because it's not appropriate to ask for a manager's shift outta no where . Then i asked her to check for me, and she said it's Eddie for tomorrow night and I heard David's voice behind, asking her .
David : Who is it ? Who is it ?
Shalini : Arrr . . . this Chantel calling to ask the manager's shift .
David : Ask what ? Wan work come work, no need ask manager's shift .
Then David got hold of the phone . =.= ! ! ! Bad, but it's done, so forget it . Then asked Chris online if he has any idea . He SMSed Linh and said tomorrow is David working the entire day because Eddie 'OFF' and 'Peter ON MARRIAGE LEAVE' . Just hope i got a bit more discount because we're not there to eat actually, to have the experience and and score points for our Marketing project .
I kept on going to his blog and checking updates for his tagboard . I gave hints but the hints are not really applicable . Updates of tag conversation : -
Me> -: she . . . has no idea whether does she has the chance to be with you . . . thus, not to be named was her choice .
Him> Jerron: To :- : i just wan to noe,is she in the same sch as me or cca or online de ??
Me> -: she's not in the same school as you .
Him> Jerron: To :- : then how she noe me since she nt the same sch as me?? Can just tell me who is she??
Me> -: why do you wanna know so much ?
Him> Jerron: To :-: cos i very curious ,nvm bar if u dun wan to say then i wun force u bar
Me> -: she paiseh to say . later genna rejected . really wanna know ? then call her . = ) . you got her contact number . it begins with 8144 . . . .
Him> Jerron: To :- : can u telll me wat her name starting?? cos i have alot of contact list lei . Mind telling me she sec wat or how old ??
Me> -: 17 this year, just had her birthday last June . Studying diploma in a polytechnic .
Me> -: do you know who is she now ? O_o
He haven't replied so far but I hope he knows it's me, and of course, you know . . . yeah . >.< ! ! I wonder how he feels, and i wonder what have i become ? I'm beginning to lose control of my feelings of him i guess . Hope his dancing goes well . Dance well . . . and rest well too . 晚安 ！
Right, time to sleep ! Nights boys and girls ! ~ Ciao !
Monday, July 09, 2007
Today is the 9th July 2007 . Jiejie and Jiefu came over and ordered KFC for dinner for the family . I wasn't at home though, was in school doing Marketing project and had Pizza Hut dine in for lunch . That was a wrong choice . Food was the worst i ever expect, served to us in aluminium foilings ( which means that the food is not fresh, kept in the foil for long ), uncleaned utensils and, bad atmosphere and noisy because of nearby construction . But then, i tipped the waitress 2 bucks because service charge was not counted in the bill and i know how it feels in her shoes and especially when the customers are above 90% students who tend to be so fussy . Hope she's happy about the tip .
Went to school today with you in mind, the more i think of you, the more i wanna cry . I couldn't get you still . Would you mind if it's me ? ? I seriously wonder . Tears went out, but i held it back . How are you doing ? ? I dare not approach you anymore, even in MSN, i'm afraid you might know it's me and turn me off . But i wanna let you know, i wanna be with you, and i want you mine .
Er jie got the desktop inside another set of speakers . BOMBASTICLY GREAT ! Great for playing techno because bass is very good ! I doubt so that i can use it ever again . =.= . Have to find new place to print future stuffs . =.= ! ! ! Why ? Because Er jie might not be free or around to log in to the windows for me to print everytime ! A bit annoying, but, no choice .
I wanna good speakers too, for i can blast when i'm feeling low, but i ask myself . What do i want more now ? It's you whom i want . So, speakers stand aside . You come first . But the thing is, how do i get the message over ? And, will you want me back ? =((( Tell me ! I'm going crazy . You are deeply missed .
Went to school today with you in mind, the more i think of you, the more i wanna cry . I couldn't get you still . Would you mind if it's me ? ? I seriously wonder . Tears went out, but i held it back . How are you doing ? ? I dare not approach you anymore, even in MSN, i'm afraid you might know it's me and turn me off . But i wanna let you know, i wanna be with you, and i want you mine .
Er jie got the desktop inside another set of speakers . BOMBASTICLY GREAT ! Great for playing techno because bass is very good ! I doubt so that i can use it ever again . =.= . Have to find new place to print future stuffs . =.= ! ! ! Why ? Because Er jie might not be free or around to log in to the windows for me to print everytime ! A bit annoying, but, no choice .
I wanna good speakers too, for i can blast when i'm feeling low, but i ask myself . What do i want more now ? It's you whom i want . So, speakers stand aside . You come first . But the thing is, how do i get the message over ? And, will you want me back ? =((( Tell me ! I'm going crazy . You are deeply missed .
Today is the 8th July 2007 . Sunday, and i'm working night again when tomorrow is a school day . But then, i help when they need me . =) .
Reached Black Angus and went in, Linh told me she didn't saw my name on the station schedule list . I was surprised, perhaps they just didn't saw my name . Then, i wentta told Tiffany and she placed me to the big station . I thought i was gonna help Serene because that's her station . But Tiffany said no, Serene will do the patrol and i'll do the big station . My reaction was : shocked ! I can barely handle the small station and she's allocating me to the big station ? ? Perhaps she might have thought too big of me . I asked her serveral times whether does she wanna change the allocation before it's too late, but her answer was a constant 'NO' . I was scared . I was afraid that i couldn't handle the station and it just went outta hand . But, as things came, Serene and Cindy helped me . So, everything was okay . =)) . Thanks to them . Although everything went well, i got scorched quite a bit . There's a few orders for warm water and we're suppose to get half a cup of boiling water and then mix it with tap water . I made it so fast that the boiling water splashed against and droplets of boiling water just 'fly' to my hands . I couldn't back my hand off because i had to adjust the cup it to such a way that water stop 'flying' out . That was one . Then came the other order for fresh baked bread to be sliced . I placed the bread on a plate and placed it under the food heater panel for Fan to sliced it . It was busy, so the plate was left there for quite a while . Though a while, the plate got so hot that the skin on my fingers handling the plate got sort of numbed . But then, no use complaining so much, it's part of a working experience, isn't it ? Knocked off at 10p.m. and walked so fast because the sky showed signs that a huge stormy rain is about to come . The wind is already strong enough to mess up my hair . Walked and upon reaching the bus-stop, the rain came, no shelter, but the bus-stop is just right up, the thing is, the green man refuse to light up faster . So, i got a bit drenched . Came to CCK interchange, the floor was dry . =) . No rain . But boarding bus 300 and reaching the first bus-stop, the rain came . It was a big rain . I alighted, didn't run, i walked fast in the rain . Till i reached my block, i'm a wet duckling . Reached home, took a shower, ate and blogging now as usual .
Went to his blog of course . He replied . =))))) .
Me> -: you know her . . . clue ? perhaps you may wanna notice the things around you, somethings that changes . . . and of course, she wants to confess, but she told me she found no chance .
Him> Jerron: To ;- : hmmm,is she from the same poly as me?? same cca??? or online friends?? Give me some clue bar.
Me> -: she . . . has no idea whether does she has the chance to be with you . . . thus, not to be named was her choice .
I wish and wish, that i would have the courage to confess and face the consequence . But somehow . . . i just couldn't, just couldn't make myself do it .
I've been missing him lately, very much deeply . I hope he feels it or so . =/ .
Nights everyone .
And to him : 晚安 ！ 想你 ！
Reached Black Angus and went in, Linh told me she didn't saw my name on the station schedule list . I was surprised, perhaps they just didn't saw my name . Then, i wentta told Tiffany and she placed me to the big station . I thought i was gonna help Serene because that's her station . But Tiffany said no, Serene will do the patrol and i'll do the big station . My reaction was : shocked ! I can barely handle the small station and she's allocating me to the big station ? ? Perhaps she might have thought too big of me . I asked her serveral times whether does she wanna change the allocation before it's too late, but her answer was a constant 'NO' . I was scared . I was afraid that i couldn't handle the station and it just went outta hand . But, as things came, Serene and Cindy helped me . So, everything was okay . =)) . Thanks to them . Although everything went well, i got scorched quite a bit . There's a few orders for warm water and we're suppose to get half a cup of boiling water and then mix it with tap water . I made it so fast that the boiling water splashed against and droplets of boiling water just 'fly' to my hands . I couldn't back my hand off because i had to adjust the cup it to such a way that water stop 'flying' out . That was one . Then came the other order for fresh baked bread to be sliced . I placed the bread on a plate and placed it under the food heater panel for Fan to sliced it . It was busy, so the plate was left there for quite a while . Though a while, the plate got so hot that the skin on my fingers handling the plate got sort of numbed . But then, no use complaining so much, it's part of a working experience, isn't it ? Knocked off at 10p.m. and walked so fast because the sky showed signs that a huge stormy rain is about to come . The wind is already strong enough to mess up my hair . Walked and upon reaching the bus-stop, the rain came, no shelter, but the bus-stop is just right up, the thing is, the green man refuse to light up faster . So, i got a bit drenched . Came to CCK interchange, the floor was dry . =) . No rain . But boarding bus 300 and reaching the first bus-stop, the rain came . It was a big rain . I alighted, didn't run, i walked fast in the rain . Till i reached my block, i'm a wet duckling . Reached home, took a shower, ate and blogging now as usual .
Went to his blog of course . He replied . =))))) .
Me> -: you know her . . . clue ? perhaps you may wanna notice the things around you, somethings that changes . . . and of course, she wants to confess, but she told me she found no chance .
Him> Jerron: To ;- : hmmm,is she from the same poly as me?? same cca??? or online friends?? Give me some clue bar.
Me> -: she . . . has no idea whether does she has the chance to be with you . . . thus, not to be named was her choice .
I wish and wish, that i would have the courage to confess and face the consequence . But somehow . . . i just couldn't, just couldn't make myself do it .
I've been missing him lately, very much deeply . I hope he feels it or so . =/ .
Nights everyone .
And to him : 晚安 ！ 想你 ！
Sunday, July 08, 2007
Today is the 8th July 2007 . Yesterday had a to take quite while for me to get asleep . Strange, because when you normally drink, you get to sleep faster, and more soundly ? But then, i got sleep anyway . Woke up, and had chicken rice for my brunch . I switched on my laptop and came to blog . But before blogging, i wentta his blog .
He replied to my tags . And i must say i'm glad he did . =) . Here's the conversation : -
Me> -: for why admirer chooses to secretly care and love .
Him> Jerron: To :- : How u noe i have a admirer?? Do i noe her?? mind giving me any clue?? I dun mind being her a friends first wan de lo
Me> -: you know her . . . clue ? perhaps you may wanna notice the things around you, somethings that changes . . . and of course, she wants to confess, but she told me she found no chance .
I've been greeting him when he comes online but he don't seem to reply . I wonder how he will react if he know the admirer is me . . . will he be delighted or will he be disgusted ? Argh ! ! ! ~
My oh my, i better know my limits between relationships and studies . =((((( .
He replied to my tags . And i must say i'm glad he did . =) . Here's the conversation : -
Me> -: for why admirer chooses to secretly care and love .
Him> Jerron: To :- : How u noe i have a admirer?? Do i noe her?? mind giving me any clue?? I dun mind being her a friends first wan de lo
Me> -: you know her . . . clue ? perhaps you may wanna notice the things around you, somethings that changes . . . and of course, she wants to confess, but she told me she found no chance .
I've been greeting him when he comes online but he don't seem to reply . I wonder how he will react if he know the admirer is me . . . will he be delighted or will he be disgusted ? Argh ! ! ! ~
My oh my, i better know my limits between relationships and studies . =((((( .
Saturday, July 07, 2007
Today is the 7th July 2007 . 070707 ! ~ Jiejie and Peter goes to ROM and is officially man and wife under the law . It was nice . Had some photographs taken, though i was reluctant to . Then went to Palm Beach Seafood Restaurant to have dinner . The food was very nice . And of course, i had lotsa wine and one glass of strong liquor . Not enough to drunk me though .
For the whole morning to afternoon, i was said to be stoned . Because i was thinking of him . I wonder how he did for his dance assessment . Hope it went well for him . I'm still finding the chance to confess . Although against my own principle that only guys confess / approach girls, i still wanna confess . I want him to know, that i wanna be with him . =( . I hope he will accept me . I'm confused . So many things running in my mind . I want him mine and only mine .
Gonna work tomorrow night, have to turn in early .
Nights everyone, sleep tight . =)
To him, you must be tired after the dance assessment, rest well.
For the whole morning to afternoon, i was said to be stoned . Because i was thinking of him . I wonder how he did for his dance assessment . Hope it went well for him . I'm still finding the chance to confess . Although against my own principle that only guys confess / approach girls, i still wanna confess . I want him to know, that i wanna be with him . =( . I hope he will accept me . I'm confused . So many things running in my mind . I want him mine and only mine .
Gonna work tomorrow night, have to turn in early .
Nights everyone, sleep tight . =)
To him, you must be tired after the dance assessment, rest well.
Friday, July 06, 2007
Today is the 6th July 2007 . Spent over than i planned . Bad . ITAB lecture went from 0800 to 1100 and we had 5 hours of break interval before FOM lecture starts at 1600 . I went home to place my laptop safe and sound when the group went to Plaza Singapura . Then i went off to meet them . Went to arcade, played some and rush back to school only to know that the FOM lecture was cancelled last minute . =.= . I could have gone home and have lunch with Mom instead .
I wonder if he has finish with his project . Project for today and no dance practises for him . If i'm not wrong, he's having a dance assessment tomorrow . I hope it goes well for him . I wentta tag his blog but didn't leave a name, so he didn't know it was me . Here it is after i read his post .
Me> -: perhaps . . . u din notice the people who care for you ?
Him> Jerron: To -: :if reall gt ppl care 4 me,pls show yourself bar,i wan to have them by myside
Me> -: showing oneself might sometimes hurt the friendship in between . which . . . i guess might hurt whoever cares for you . .
Me> -: perhaps that's why some people chose to be a secret admirer than to express a confession .
How i wish i can be by his side all the time . Chances are, small, according to me prediction . I think i'm not suitable for him . That's explains the confession part . Miss him a bit lesser today because i was chatting with the group and laughing my voice off . I hope to go up to him and say many times that i wanna be with him . Am i crazy ? ?
I'm still thinking about the photograph that he and his dance partner took together . =( .
I hope . I wish . I wait .
I wonder if he has finish with his project . Project for today and no dance practises for him . If i'm not wrong, he's having a dance assessment tomorrow . I hope it goes well for him . I wentta tag his blog but didn't leave a name, so he didn't know it was me . Here it is after i read his post .
Me> -: perhaps . . . u din notice the people who care for you ?
Him> Jerron: To -: :if reall gt ppl care 4 me,pls show yourself bar,i wan to have them by myside
Me> -: showing oneself might sometimes hurt the friendship in between . which . . . i guess might hurt whoever cares for you . .
Me> -: perhaps that's why some people chose to be a secret admirer than to express a confession .
How i wish i can be by his side all the time . Chances are, small, according to me prediction . I think i'm not suitable for him . That's explains the confession part . Miss him a bit lesser today because i was chatting with the group and laughing my voice off . I hope to go up to him and say many times that i wanna be with him . Am i crazy ? ?
I'm still thinking about the photograph that he and his dance partner took together . =( .
I hope . I wish . I wait .
Today is the 6th July 2007 . It's 9.50a.m. now and i'am having a small break during ITAB lecture . He's online, in school and busy with project .
I wanted to tell him so much everytime when he comes online, but i don't find a chance to say yet . I feel terrible, uneasy with the mindset that i have not know any bit of an idea whether i still stand a chance . I wish and hope and sincerely placed my need-to-know necessity on the responsibility of a shooting star . I want him mine, by his choice . I wanna cry, i wanna shout, i wanna go somewhere quiet and nice .
I want him with me .
Tell me .
I wanted to tell him so much everytime when he comes online, but i don't find a chance to say yet . I feel terrible, uneasy with the mindset that i have not know any bit of an idea whether i still stand a chance . I wish and hope and sincerely placed my need-to-know necessity on the responsibility of a shooting star . I want him mine, by his choice . I wanna cry, i wanna shout, i wanna go somewhere quiet and nice .
I want him with me .
Tell me .
Thursday, July 05, 2007
Today is the 5th July 2007 . I can't take it any longer ! I have to say it out, if not, i just don't feel right . Uneasy is the word .
Chatted with Yuan Man, and asked him what i should do since he's a guy . He adviced me to confess before it's too late and i regret . Is that so ? But i really wanna know how he will react to my confession, maybe because i see even the smallest chance of succeeding, i wanna take it . I'm having a MSN conversation with him, but why is he replying so slow . . . . . . . . ? ? He showed me a photograph taken of his dance partner and him . She's lying on his shoulder, they're both dozing off in the train cabin . I don't feel pleasant about it and kept on thinking about the picture . Is this call jealousy ? I used to think people who goes jealous are narrow minded, but now ? ? I think i am narrow minded myself, though i'm not sure if i'm getting jealous .
I can't turn in with a mind like this . I need alcohol . Sobs .
H . e . l . p ! ~
Chatted with Yuan Man, and asked him what i should do since he's a guy . He adviced me to confess before it's too late and i regret . Is that so ? But i really wanna know how he will react to my confession, maybe because i see even the smallest chance of succeeding, i wanna take it . I'm having a MSN conversation with him, but why is he replying so slow . . . . . . . . ? ? He showed me a photograph taken of his dance partner and him . She's lying on his shoulder, they're both dozing off in the train cabin . I don't feel pleasant about it and kept on thinking about the picture . Is this call jealousy ? I used to think people who goes jealous are narrow minded, but now ? ? I think i am narrow minded myself, though i'm not sure if i'm getting jealous .
I can't turn in with a mind like this . I need alcohol . Sobs .
H . e . l . p ! ~
Today is the 5th July 2007 . I shall say i'm a bad girl today . I went to school without laptop today and only to realise that we'll be having Business Statistic SPSS training . Shucks . And so i skipped Statistic tutorial for today . Went to Paya Lebar to meet up with Peter and Jiejie to shop for 070707 . And i found my new shopping paradise . Wow was the word which i can only say and i see my next salary flying already .
Wasn't concentrating at all today . I wonder if i'm really having a crush . I have never felt so abnormal . The me today is not the usual me . I seem to be in some dreamland every hour .
He kept on popping up in my mind and i kept on thinking . What am i to him ? A friend ? A nice girl ? Or someone who has a chance of becoming a person closer to him ? I know i shouldn't be thinking of these things, i know i should be studying and aiming for 'A's and i know, i'm only a friend to him . I wanna meet him again, i wanna meet him often, i wanna get to know him better . I really wanna confess, but i'm afraid the confession might lead us to the end of our friendship . The awkward-ness might be the reason if my confession fails me . I wonder and really wonder, how does he look at me ? And what am i to him ? Curiousity pops in me to ask those questions . What do i do ? I can't possibly let this go on, i can't concentrate in lectures and tutorials with him popping on my mind always . Tell me what should i do ? ! ? ! And tell me, if this is love, like, crush or admire ? ? ?
Wasn't concentrating at all today . I wonder if i'm really having a crush . I have never felt so abnormal . The me today is not the usual me . I seem to be in some dreamland every hour .
He kept on popping up in my mind and i kept on thinking . What am i to him ? A friend ? A nice girl ? Or someone who has a chance of becoming a person closer to him ? I know i shouldn't be thinking of these things, i know i should be studying and aiming for 'A's and i know, i'm only a friend to him . I wanna meet him again, i wanna meet him often, i wanna get to know him better . I really wanna confess, but i'm afraid the confession might lead us to the end of our friendship . The awkward-ness might be the reason if my confession fails me . I wonder and really wonder, how does he look at me ? And what am i to him ? Curiousity pops in me to ask those questions . What do i do ? I can't possibly let this go on, i can't concentrate in lectures and tutorials with him popping on my mind always . Tell me what should i do ? ! ? ! And tell me, if this is love, like, crush or admire ? ? ?
I am so confuse and afraid .
=(
Wednesday, July 04, 2007
Today is 4th July 2007 . Quite happy overall for today . Break school at 1245hours and off i rushed to NYP to return the chalet fees to John and went to meet up with Jerron . It has been a long time since we met . ^_^ . He's still as what he is . Haha .
Nathan and group went to Cineleisure to have Sakae buffet and we went to Heeren to walk about . Haha, kinda wish time stops there . Erm, sounds weird . Never mind . Hmmm . Then went to Cineleisure to walk about too, but don't see Nathan and guys . Haha . Then walked down to Wisma and he wentta have ice-cream . Haha . And i went missing purposely because he says i might be the only one who goes lost in Wisma to the fact that i don't go there often . Haha . =PPP . But i found him in the end, haha, don't let him run around mah . Took the train down to Boon Lay and wentta Jurong Point to walk a bit . His leg went pain . Seem very painful . Gosh . I have no idea how to react . Still can't find something for Jie Rui . Haiz . What to i do ? Think ! ~
Hope his leg is getting better by now . Erm, i sound over-concerned . =/ . He makes me feel different about BGR . I feel that he gives true feelings for any girlfriend he has . Perhaps, i should stop here .
Have a great night .
=)
Nathan and group went to Cineleisure to have Sakae buffet and we went to Heeren to walk about . Haha, kinda wish time stops there . Erm, sounds weird . Never mind . Hmmm . Then went to Cineleisure to walk about too, but don't see Nathan and guys . Haha . Then walked down to Wisma and he wentta have ice-cream . Haha . And i went missing purposely because he says i might be the only one who goes lost in Wisma to the fact that i don't go there often . Haha . =PPP . But i found him in the end, haha, don't let him run around mah . Took the train down to Boon Lay and wentta Jurong Point to walk a bit . His leg went pain . Seem very painful . Gosh . I have no idea how to react . Still can't find something for Jie Rui . Haiz . What to i do ? Think ! ~
Hope his leg is getting better by now . Erm, i sound over-concerned . =/ . He makes me feel different about BGR . I feel that he gives true feelings for any girlfriend he has . Perhaps, i should stop here .
Have a great night .
=)
Tuesday, July 03, 2007
Today is the 3rd July 2007 . I wore my color lens to school for the first time . Haha . Went slightly late though . =P .
School breaks at 3pm since Character Development ( CD ) is cancelled . Then the group stayed back for about an hour to discuss Marketing project . Haha ! I must say i almost burst out laughing for most of the time . Haha !
After which, i went shopping with Cheryl since i bought concession, no harm travelling more . Also have the intention of searching for dressings for this Saturday's event . Went Heeren and saw one very beautiful turtle neck top . It's white in color, silky in texture and is a long top . I love it a lot, but it's so expensive, it cost S$159/- . =((((( . I shall just treat it as a sweet dream .
I wish i have the money . =( . Sob . I wanna get my driving lisence next year and if possible, own a MINI car ( since Lamborghini is totally impossible ), go Genting with group next year . . . but it all seems so far . I'm going broke soon .
Yawns . I better get to bed now . It's getting late .
=) . =/ . =( .
School breaks at 3pm since Character Development ( CD ) is cancelled . Then the group stayed back for about an hour to discuss Marketing project . Haha ! I must say i almost burst out laughing for most of the time . Haha !
After which, i went shopping with Cheryl since i bought concession, no harm travelling more . Also have the intention of searching for dressings for this Saturday's event . Went Heeren and saw one very beautiful turtle neck top . It's white in color, silky in texture and is a long top . I love it a lot, but it's so expensive, it cost S$159/- . =((((( . I shall just treat it as a sweet dream .
I wish i have the money . =( . Sob . I wanna get my driving lisence next year and if possible, own a MINI car ( since Lamborghini is totally impossible ), go Genting with group next year . . . but it all seems so far . I'm going broke soon .
Yawns . I better get to bed now . It's getting late .
=) . =/ . =( .
Monday, July 02, 2007
Today is the 2nd July 2007 . And i've finally found time to change my blog skin . Muahahahaha . Although not as much to my preference, but i think i'm enough of searching blog skins . Nowadays, skins are counted as millions . Yawns .
Got it changed a bit here and there, but couldn't get some quotes inserted . Because the quotes are too big and there's no place to place them . So, too bad i guess .
I got my FOM ( Marketing ) grades today . I've scored 83 marks . That's what i'm happy about . =)))))))))) . HAHA ! ! ~ However, tutorials today was kinda boring, except his stories that kept me awake . Because i was working last night, i am so tired . Hong Choo and guys went to KBox and i went home to take a long afternoon nap . So long that it can be considered sleeping . Haha .
Hmmm, i have to help JieRui plan her dressing for Saturday . If not, she's not gonna look appropriate on that day . I'm wearing MinJia's dress . =) . So, i'll have to go shopping a little bit .
Tiffany is having her off day tomorrow, i'm not sure if i wanna meet her . Maybe i'll just meet her up to confront her . She's feeling terrible . I, as a friend, would wanna help her solve her problem . Not like some other girls, only knows how to criticize her thinking and actions . She believe that she's being strongly look down upon on her inability to learn things fast and get things done as good as normal human being . She might be a little retarded, just a little, but she's also a human, she has feelings too, she has dreams to realize too . I wish to help her to my limit . I hope god does that too .
Bless me, and her .
Got it changed a bit here and there, but couldn't get some quotes inserted . Because the quotes are too big and there's no place to place them . So, too bad i guess .
I got my FOM ( Marketing ) grades today . I've scored 83 marks . That's what i'm happy about . =)))))))))) . HAHA ! ! ~ However, tutorials today was kinda boring, except his stories that kept me awake . Because i was working last night, i am so tired . Hong Choo and guys went to KBox and i went home to take a long afternoon nap . So long that it can be considered sleeping . Haha .
Hmmm, i have to help JieRui plan her dressing for Saturday . If not, she's not gonna look appropriate on that day . I'm wearing MinJia's dress . =) . So, i'll have to go shopping a little bit .
Tiffany is having her off day tomorrow, i'm not sure if i wanna meet her . Maybe i'll just meet her up to confront her . She's feeling terrible . I, as a friend, would wanna help her solve her problem . Not like some other girls, only knows how to criticize her thinking and actions . She believe that she's being strongly look down upon on her inability to learn things fast and get things done as good as normal human being . She might be a little retarded, just a little, but she's also a human, she has feelings too, she has dreams to realize too . I wish to help her to my limit . I hope god does that too .
Bless me, and her .